Do I dive in again? Test the waters, see what the life of dating is like again? I’m scared. I’m nervous. Actually, I am terrified.
How do I do this? How do you figure out how to meet people and actually date when you haven’t dated since you were 22. I haven’t dated anyone since 1995 … think about that! I don’t know how to do this as a 43 year old woman. I don’t know the rules anymore. I don’t know how you do it.
Really don’t want to go to bar and meet someone, church isn’t an option. Online dating? Go out with an acquaintance? Blind date? It’s so freaking scary! I don’t want to worry about psychos and weirdos. But, in order to move forward with my life, I may have to deal with a few weirdos, and I guess that is OK.
It’s been 18 months since Don died and I miss him every single day, however, I feel that I may be able to move forward now. Not move on, because Don will always be a huge part of my life, but I would like to have a social life again. Dinner, drinks, movies, laughter … those are things I would like again. But, the whole concept is so foreign and unknown to me.
Wish me luck as I hold my nose and jump off the diving board, into the deep end of the pool.
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